We attend counseling on a regular basis and seem to stay together. My main reason is for our children which, is a position I guess a lot of women and men I suppose are in.
I am considered attractive at 5"7" 132 Lb. Dark hair and 34C breasts. I wasnt virgin when I married and neither was my husband. We had premarital sex and more or less confessed to each other our previous sexual experience. I held one back and that was with a Black boy that I went to school with. It was a brief encounter and involved both oral and vaginal sex. Despite any premarital sex and 11 years of marriage, I had yet to experience and orgasm!
When first married, my husband honestly tried and I read all of the books I could find and he bought me vibrators and we tried to no avail for me to achieve orgasm. One thing I think that has always stood in our way is my husbands luke warm feeling towards oral sex. He enjoyed me giving him head especially during my periods, but was kind of lax when it came to oral on me. So after many years, he kind of gave up and when he needed sex he kind of plugged into me and did his thing.
I never in all the years cheated on him, although the thought of what I was missing was constantly on my mind. The vibrators were soon running out of battery power in my drawer, since I couldnt even bring myself to an orgasm. I sort of gave up and excepted it as my destiny. My husband is a good provider, with a trade and works long hard hours. He is also a very good father to our children, so when I look at a lot of other husbands who stay out, drinking and then beat their wives, I consider myself lucky in that respect. So life went on!
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